Today is supposed to be a day that you think of your loved ones… your special someone. This year that cloud of giddiness and pure joy is tinged with storms. I can’t get my mind off of Angie. It would have been her 37th birthday 11 days ago and today Erik is coping with having his first Valentine’s without his wife. Brent and I are still in shock over this loss. Everything seems to remind me of her. I still wear my Leukemia bracelet daily. I still think of Jessi and Erik daily and worry about how they are dealing with it all… I worry about them. There are considered to be 5 Stages of Greif - Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. I worry that they will linger on Anger for a while.
I know I would be angry if my mom were ripped from me when I was 13. I know I would be pissed off if my husband were just suddenly… gone.
There are no correct answers in how people deal with grief. For me, I am depressed. I will always remember and love Angie.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Weight Watchers- It’s a Journey
I started Weight Watchers on 01/18/2011 and just completed my second week. I have lost 5.4 lbs which I think it very exciting! Granted, I have a long journey ahead of me before I reach my target goal but I am enjoying this process.
Right now I am focusing on learning. I am learning what will make this a life-change for me and the tricks that will help me to keep the weight off FOREVER. So far I have really enjoying trying Weight Watchers recipes, keeping yummy guilt-free foods in the house, and keeping allies at hand. I have many friends at work who are also doing WW and have experienced success. Seeing their progress is very encouraging. Brent has also proven to be a fantastic ally. He is making better food choices for himself and is 110% supportive of my goals.
For me, it’s about owning where I am right now. It’s about acceptance. I am not a “healthy” person. I have a tremendous amount of weight to lose before I reach my target of 140. I have accepted that may be a few years from now and am okay with that. I want to have another child so reaching the goal may need to wait until after that happens. And no, I am not pregnant!
I want to be around, and healthy, when I am 90 years old. I have so much heart disease, obesity, diabetes, etc in my family that I cannot be idle any longer. I am approaching 30. My first goal is to be under 200 pounds by the time I reach my 30th birthday in June.
That is only 12.3 pounds away. I can totally do this!
Right now I am focusing on learning. I am learning what will make this a life-change for me and the tricks that will help me to keep the weight off FOREVER. So far I have really enjoying trying Weight Watchers recipes, keeping yummy guilt-free foods in the house, and keeping allies at hand. I have many friends at work who are also doing WW and have experienced success. Seeing their progress is very encouraging. Brent has also proven to be a fantastic ally. He is making better food choices for himself and is 110% supportive of my goals.
For me, it’s about owning where I am right now. It’s about acceptance. I am not a “healthy” person. I have a tremendous amount of weight to lose before I reach my target of 140. I have accepted that may be a few years from now and am okay with that. I want to have another child so reaching the goal may need to wait until after that happens. And no, I am not pregnant!
I want to be around, and healthy, when I am 90 years old. I have so much heart disease, obesity, diabetes, etc in my family that I cannot be idle any longer. I am approaching 30. My first goal is to be under 200 pounds by the time I reach my 30th birthday in June.
That is only 12.3 pounds away. I can totally do this!
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